Stop.

Maybe it's time i quit thinking about you and getting lost in memory lane? I do miss you still, but, neither time nor tide waits for anybody.. Me included. :/ I dont quite know what I should do.. The heart just wants to wallow in the happy times, memories brilliant and vivid, reveling in the raw emotions I felt.. The head says stop. Stop it. No amount of reminiscing will bring us back to where we left of, to what we had, back then. Barely a year ago..? Maybe it's time to WAKE UP. Face reality, LIVE reality. This is MY life. My reality has begun already, like it or not..
Yet somehow, Im waiting for a closure, a proper one. Ever since that painful day, I have been living in regret, all this long while. And we just broke off- total silence from you. Been missing you painfully, when I FINALLY realise what he was doing to me- playing mind games. The hurt, the longing, still tears me up inside.. Brings tears to my eyes. Still, its too late(damn, I hate those 2 words), done and dusted. Somehow I'd rather live knowing you never said those words to me, than you having done it and me throwing it away. Perhaps I'll never go another day without these regrets, but it's quite time to quit, just.. Stop. Memories will still remain, after all, whats done cannot be undone- whats the use of crying over spilt milk? Yeah.. And maybe I'll still miss you, my heart will still ache when I think of you, but I think it's time I gave myself the long overdue closure with regards to you.