you.

i have to remind myself not to want you, cos you are as mesmerizing as ever. im not the kind of girl to swoon, but you're a different story altogether. thinking of you, looking even better than the last time i saw you (i swear), drives me crazy. hey its not easy letting you go, though maybe i've never even had you in the first place. if God allows me a second chance, imma grab it and hold on tight, and thats a huge IF. i dont know if i will ever meet another person whos as upright, decent, honest-abt-who-he-is as you are. i dont know if i will ever find someone who i can click with so easily, talk about anything, everything. doubt i can locate that one person whos just so clean and God-fearing as you. words cant fully contain the person im trying to describe, cos theres just so much more to you than i can write here, but it'll have to do. dont know if i can fully get over you cos ive loved you so much, doubtlessly more than myself. this is making me cry, but i have to get it off my chest somehow. all i want is to rewind one year, and one month, and to get things right. yeah, you'll always be "my dear", in more ways than one. and love seems like such a small word, insignificant, but what it encompasses cannot be measured physically, nearly boundless. i dont want to find someone new, i just want to find you again. please.